I started going to work again today. I've been promising myself for the past 2 months that I will go back to work again but everytime the day comes, I keep postponing it. I think I've used up all the excuses in the book.
Oh well, today, I finally gave in and showed up at the office. It's actually the second time this month that I went to the office so that's really quite something considering the last time I was there to actually do some work was maybe November of last year. Anyway, this time, I really need to stick to my plans and start working again. Even if it's only a couple of hours each day. I need to stop making excuses and actually going. Hopefully this will be a start of something productive for me. I need to get my lazy butt off of the computer chair and start doing something other than surf the net. It is so addicting though, I can't help myself.
If I can keep going to work for at least 3 times a week and a couple of hours a day, I think that would be good for a start. I just have to take baby steps and hopefully make it. I just have to be a full time mom too while working. No babysitters, I can just imagine how my days would be like. With a 5 year old going to school every day and a toddler that is so clingy, my days would be so busy. The only time I get to myself is when everybody else is in bed sleeping. So, that leads to a problem I've had for a while with sleeping. Even if I'm so tired, I just can't sleep earlier than midnight. I've been waking up between 7:00 - 7:30 in the morning though even if I sleep around 2:00 or 3:00. I don't know what's wrong with me. Insomnia will take its toll soon I know. For now, I know this blog will add to the list of things that will keep me up until the wee hours of the night, or should I say morning:-)
Hmmm... maybe this blog is a good tool to actually let all my feelings go. It's been so long since I've put my thoughts in writing that somehow it's so freeing. I might actually like this.
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